Everyone has a bad day now and then, right?

I had one yesterday. I woke up at three in the morning after going to sleep some time after Lost ended at ten. Wide awake, but exausted. By the time Saron woke up I was in Super -witch mode. He didn't deserve any of my additude, but, MAN! did he get it. It took him until near nine last nite to finally have enough. He snapped at me, I snapped back and then realized what a jerk I was being. I also realized that (just as if I was a child) the best place for a grouchy person to be was in bed. I was asleep by ten and didn't wake until seven this morning. Refreshed and ready to go.

Oh, and, yes, I told Saron I was sorry for being a jerk. He still loves me! (Big Smile)

So, now, the question is - Why couldn't I sleep?

The answer is - the same reason I was grouchy:

I'm feeling tired of the situation we are in. The lack of control, the uncertainty, the feeling that nothing I am doing is making it any better.

We got the jokes - erm, that is the unemployment checks yesterday. Saron's severance check is late. It still didn't come today, either.

Our vacuum broke yesterday, too. Ever notice how when you can least afford it, things break? Thankfully, as I believe I've written before, Saron and I are spoilt children; I called my father and he offered to buy us a new vacuum. I went this morning and picked it out. It's a nice Bissell made particularly for picking up pet hair. With two constantly shedding dogs, I'm into that idea!

We also went up to our church yesterday to pay our tithe because we constantly forget to take a check on Sunday. (And, yes, I do mean 'tithe,' as in ten percent of our earnings) The secretary wouldn't take the check! She knows the situation we are in, just as everyone at church does, and told us to keep the money and start paying a tithe again when we were working again. Apparently this was not her idea, she just got to be the messenger. I understood, and was grateful. Saron, however was not so; He feels our tithe is our obligation. While I do agree with him, I don't think God will mind if we pay our bills and such. As long as we don't fritter away the money, then, while it strikes my pride to not be living up to my promised tithe, I can deal - pride is overrated, anyway.

Ofcourse, as we can, we will still give to the church...just in cash, so they can't not cash the check! Aren't we sneaky?

I discovered something interesting last nite - well, interesting to me, anyway. As I was getting ready for bed, I started to set my alarm, then realized that I didn't have any reason to set it - I had no obiligations to fill, no reason to get up if I didn't want to... I don't mind telling you, that scared me more than just about anything!

I'm big on making lists. I realized that I needed to get back in the habit of making them for each day as I did when I was working and trying to fit everything into my busy day. It worked for today.

I knew that I would need to pick out a new vacuum, so that was first on my list. Then I remembered that it had been four months since I last got my hair cut. That went on my list: The hair salon and the store I went to to look at vacuums are in the same shopping center - a gas saving trip! We only have a few more weeks of insurance, and Saron needs new glasses, so making an appointment for him went on the list... Okay, I won't bore you with any more of the list, I'm sure you get the idea. It worked, is my point. I got up this morning knowing that I had a purpose for today. I got everything done, and now, at ten at nite I have a feeling of accomplishment. It's been awhile since I felt that. I like it!

Tomorrow, Saron and I get to finalize the plans for the new carpet we are getting. Then we really have to step up our game and get this house emptied! Wish us luck!

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